2022 seems to be the second year of a new relationship.
You’re either going to make it or break it.
2021 was the beautiful honeymoon stage of beauty and life
the rose colored glasses suddenly were wiped clean and the true nature of what hides beneath makes its way to the surface.
I found myself being in love with someone who no longer wants to be with me.
I lost a best friend without explanation besides just dropping me.
Instagram and Snapchat constantly remind of memories that I wish I could just delete because the heartbreak…
is.. just…unbearable.
The rhythm of words that I once found solace in completely stopped
because the pain made my mind and my spirit completely numb.
Angry outbursts find me at my most vulnerable times
Yet the ones I would go to
I can no longer confide.
i find myself holding back from flourishing new connections because I’ve been let down so many times.
The comical thing of it all is everyone thinks i’m doing just fine.
Curated collections of photos and videos put out into the world on my accord.
But if I disappeared how would anyone know?
So I’m just trying to find my way back to the girl who started writing out of heartbreak.
And hopefully she finds me.